So, remember me saying a while back about school not being for everyone? Well here is an update of my life in general about what is new and what is out the door. I have now acknowledged that so far I have completed 103 credits at the local Junior college. I have learned many things and am at a 3.40 grade point average. I am now going for my Art history major, Studio art, and computer graphics. i can say i am very proud.

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My Challenge for Life longevity

August 24th, 2015, My goals in life have changed dramatically. All because of health issues, it has come to my attention that I need to lose weight and become a healthy individual. And yes I said healthy if I don't do it for me then I will do it for my kids sake. I want to live long enough to witness them to being successful individuals or to guide them at doing good things through life.So far I have started to eat right. You may ask what you mean eat right? Well for starters is controlling my portions and knowing what amounts of proteins and calories I'm intaking. By doing this, I can evaluate how much I take in and how much I burn through my calories as fuel.now that's a start for my success, now I am weighing in at 472l

bs how sad but I am built for success.

School is not for Everyone!!!!!

Decided to take three classes through the summer ooohhhh boyyyyyy this old man is gonna studyyyyy lol. Well I am trying to sharpen my skills in keeping my mind flowing. I am hoping I learn some new things first class was Health and Art Appreciation and the last class is Computer Literacy. Soooo i gotta get back to my studies wish me luck

Pleasure & Pain In anticipation of our next meeting, I get a shiver down my spine. To be in the control of your able hands Is an addictive passion of mine The day is here; I am wonderfully frightened. You lead me to the cold and sterile chair; The melodious buzzing, I am intoxicated The smells of antiseptic and latex in the air. A cool wetness, and then the graze of the blade You firmly press the sheet against my skin I inspect the mark and smile in approval; You say it is time to begin. My heart begins to race as you approach And I feel a hot surge in my veins. My breath departs me for a moment; You grin and mock my pain. I begin to relax and bask in my bliss Watching with masochistic delight. Pain becomes pleasure; torture is hedonic - I move and you hold me down tight With one last thrust, your task is complete - I am bloody, injured and content. You dress my wound and send me off; I can't wait to do it again...... Lol A message from a client

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Pleasure & Pain In anticipation of our next meeting, I get a shiver down my spine. To be in the control of your able hands Is an addictive passion of mine The day is here; I am wonderfully frightened. You lead me to the cold and sterile chair; The melodious buzzing, I am intoxicated The smells of antiseptic and latex in the air. A cool wetness, and then the graze of the blade You firmly press the sheet against my skin I inspect the mark and smile in approval; You say it is time to begin. My heart begins to race as you approach And I feel a hot surge in my veins. My breath departs me for a moment; You grin and mock my pain. I begin to relax and bask in my bliss Watching with masochistic delight. Pain becomes pleasure; torture is hedonic - I move and you hold me down tight With one last thrust, your task is complete - I am bloody, injured and content. You dress my wound and send me off; I can't wait to do it again.

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Hahaha What was i thinking here? This is a pic in ahhh Pasadena Ca it was a Tattoo Convention we arrived and there was animal bushes and like every bush i get to see i will beat it LOL ....not even i really don't do things like that but anywhoooo .. here is a pic of me and the bush k

Hi My Name is Buddha some call me Tury you gotta roll the RRRRss lol or like tuttie lol yup yup .well first of all like to welcome you to my BLOG spot here i can express myself or write down a few things about myself so you can know me. Actually i also have a few things i wanna post from my past things i have wrote just thoughts and feelings. well if you know me already feel free to text me or just drop a comment aiiggghhhttt here we go wish me luck lol.kidding

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I'm not sure if you know or not
But I really do love you a lot.
You still hold a special place in my heart
And you did, right from the start.

But when he came along and took your breath away,
I was devastated and didn't know what to say.
I spend my nights crying, time after time,
I spent my days lying, saying I was fine.

Little did you know, my heart was crushed inside,
And on that day, a little of me died.
But with him, you look so in love
'Cause you are an angel from above.

I now have to teach my heart to move on,
For, you are now forever gone.
But about one thing I am unsure:
Why it can't be me, and not him.

I always admit that I have often thought
of leaving it all behind and letting it go

I was lost and alone, as I always am,
So many people always around me,
Yet no one seems to care at all.

They say they understand and love me very much and care,
But just when I Trust to love, they forget and move on.

I held the knife so close
as tears, mixed with blood,
Began to fall slowly.
Like a foolish child I cried.
For the deep pain inside of me burns,
I scream but no one hears me.....

Knowing that I could end it all now
made my mind draw a blank.

I put the knife away and tried to wipe the blood,
that ran faster than I can describe.

I knew suicide wasn't the answer I was looking for.
I knew there was a reason for me being alone.

So many bad things happening at once -
They can make you forget
About the good qualities of life.

Even though life is hard,
and trouble an inevitable part of it.

If you decide to leave it all behind,
maybe you will,
but I can guarantee that others
....Your Mistake will haunt

Have you Ever

Have You ever loved someone
But knew they didn't care?
Have You ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?

Have you ever looked into their eyes
And said a little prayer?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?

Have you ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have you ever whispered "God, I love You"
But you'll never let me show?

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose between Love and Death,
I'd rather choose to die.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
It doesn't pay a dime.
It only causes broken hearts,
Yet it happens all the time.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
You'll hurt before it's through.
I ought to know, my friend -
I fell in love with you.

ITs one oF those dayzzzz

Yup indeed one of those days where all else fails all those that were there for you step on you cause they don't see you. Those days you rather stay home and look out the window and watch the day go by. Well at one point i have to face it face reality and just march, March towards the darkness and lift my chin up to those that brought me down to that level . Sad but true sometimes i say we have to stare at the eyes of the demons in this mad world and wonder why we have to go down this path was there a warning that said DANGER! or DO NOT ENTER! if there was did i ignore it what really happened and y am i in this position? Thee end is near and maybe just maybe i will then know why there are days like this .........THE END